I'm getting ready to embark on an amazing year. With my daughter's first birthday approaching and my business ready to open any day now, I'm getting ready to put into action all the day dreams I've had for the past 15 years. I have a fabulous new office and the flexibility to be my own boss. I have a supportive, handsome and loving husband. I have a beautiful, athletic and smart daughter. I have a roof over my head, good health, reliable transportation, clothing for my body, and food in my belly. I have what many people who live in poverty would view as an abundant life.
I no longer have to sit in traffic for two to four hours a day. I can spend more time with my family, and for myself. I am my own boss, for both the good and bad that the tittle brings. So why have I not jumped into my new found time with more gusto? I had so many plans for that extra time each day. The reality is that old patterns and routines are hard to break.
I realize what a great opportunity I have in front of me, and the temptation to fall into old routines it more massive than I originally thought. I've lived in a high stress lifestyle for so many years, that I forgot for a time what it was to not be "on edge" all the time. Too little sleep, too much caffeine and sugar, not enough physical exercise. I've used food as a comfort and neglected my body. I would never allow the empty calories that pass through my mouth to go into my daughter's body. Sugar and simple carbohydrates have soothed me into submission over the years, but I'm getting good and angry. I'm a fighter and a survivor. I won't let old habits and patterns win.
So this is it, I'm declaring a year for myself. My daughter is getting closer to weaning. We're not planning a baby for this year. I've changed my work life radically to accommodate a life that I want. Now is the time for me to make the changes. I tend to be all or nothing in my approach to many things in life, but in my weight it hasn't worked. I'm switching gears and changing tracks - it's time to do the 80/20 rule. Get it right most of the time and enjoy the ride.
Now I've lost weight and exercised before and felt so much better. However I get derailed by life. I'm smart enough to know the principles of fewer calories in than burned = weight loss. However I'm changing my focus from "I want to loose this much weight by this time or for this event". I'm no longer tying my happiness to a number on the scale or printed on the inside of my clothing. Instead, I want to see how I feel when given the freedom to take care of myself for an hour a day. I reside in a body that deserves more love and respect than I have been giving it. I'm going to find things that I can do for myself that build joy and happiness physically. I'm going to take the long view and see how far I can get in a year. I suspect that I can be in a much better place in a year. I am ready to do this!
I no longer have to sit in traffic for two to four hours a day. I can spend more time with my family, and for myself. I am my own boss, for both the good and bad that the tittle brings. So why have I not jumped into my new found time with more gusto? I had so many plans for that extra time each day. The reality is that old patterns and routines are hard to break.
I realize what a great opportunity I have in front of me, and the temptation to fall into old routines it more massive than I originally thought. I've lived in a high stress lifestyle for so many years, that I forgot for a time what it was to not be "on edge" all the time. Too little sleep, too much caffeine and sugar, not enough physical exercise. I've used food as a comfort and neglected my body. I would never allow the empty calories that pass through my mouth to go into my daughter's body. Sugar and simple carbohydrates have soothed me into submission over the years, but I'm getting good and angry. I'm a fighter and a survivor. I won't let old habits and patterns win.
So this is it, I'm declaring a year for myself. My daughter is getting closer to weaning. We're not planning a baby for this year. I've changed my work life radically to accommodate a life that I want. Now is the time for me to make the changes. I tend to be all or nothing in my approach to many things in life, but in my weight it hasn't worked. I'm switching gears and changing tracks - it's time to do the 80/20 rule. Get it right most of the time and enjoy the ride.
Now I've lost weight and exercised before and felt so much better. However I get derailed by life. I'm smart enough to know the principles of fewer calories in than burned = weight loss. However I'm changing my focus from "I want to loose this much weight by this time or for this event". I'm no longer tying my happiness to a number on the scale or printed on the inside of my clothing. Instead, I want to see how I feel when given the freedom to take care of myself for an hour a day. I reside in a body that deserves more love and respect than I have been giving it. I'm going to find things that I can do for myself that build joy and happiness physically. I'm going to take the long view and see how far I can get in a year. I suspect that I can be in a much better place in a year. I am ready to do this!
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